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I'm back to being me... Just stronger.
If you read ANY of my posts you would surely know this last move..... was COMPLETE HELL! It drained my energy, my hope, faith, happiness, and changed my entire life. Before the move everyone always said "You're always smiling! That's what I love about you! No matter how hard life gets I can count on your smile" --- I heard that from SOOOO many people. But for once in my life, my smile faded and then disappeared. I had to be more than a 14 year old girl... I had to be responsible, I had to be the parent, I had to be the adult, and even bring money in the house here and there. I gave up everything I knew. I had to sacrifice my teenage years. I did home schooling, ALL on my own, I worked, I looked for houses, I did bills, I scheduled my own appointments. Everything a teenager shouldn't have to do or let alone worry about. But I did.
But the last 3 weeks of a normal school year, my mom went to a mental hospital and I was taken under my aunts wing. Which allowed me to move, go back to school, see my friends, and breathe... I became a kid again. And even though I was an adult and went through hell and back for 8 months, those 3 weeks made up for everything. I'm myself again. Always with friends, having a good time and not worrying about whats waiting at home. Because whats waiting at home can wait and be delt with later. The ONLY thing that has changed is the way I am around new people. I've become more shy and protective, I don't let my walls down and have a hard time opening up to people I don't know. Other than that, I'm still me. Just stronger. 
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I'm actually, sadley, back and fourth between my aunts and my moms right now. :/ My aunt is getting married in August and moving so I have no choice. |
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Is she not willing to take you with her? Have you asked? |
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Noo. This is her second chance at marriage. She is very godly and has been divorced and hurt for 11 years. I want her to be happy and have another go. I would just be getting in her way |
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It's been said that which does not kill us, makes us stronger and all that, but man...the bottom line is you need to do what you need to do for yourself, because in the end, that's the only person who standing there with you, your self... |
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I completley, 100% agree with you! I say that all the time. It don't matter who you have behind you or how long they have been there with you, in the end its not gonna matter. It all ends with you. |
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More changes for you. I hope this school year is more settled for you. |
I hope you stay with your Aunt. You deserve better than what was happening with your Mom. You are not an adult and should not have to take on the responsiblities of one.
I had to when I was even younger than you and believe me if I had had someplace or someone else to go to I would have and I would have fought to stay there.