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Emotions are out of control

I feel like I am drowning in a deep deep thick fog with no way out, I'm just stuck there.
My emotions feel absolutely out of control... and I am ALWAYS a person who is in control.
Now that my emotions are out of control, I feel out of control and I don't know what to do anymore.
One day I'm okay, and i'm making it through. I'm not happy but I'm okay.
The next day I am filled with SO much anger I want to lash out and be mean.
The next day I feel so completely filled with grief I can't hardly get out of bed.
The next day I am so utterly filled with anger and negavitity that is all that consumes my thoughts. I am bitter and filled with hateful.
The next day I feel completely empty and filled with nothing.
The next day I am jittery and flashing through all the emotions at once that I want to scream and tear off my skin and make it bleed.
I just want it to stop. I can't go on like this and I don't know how to handle it.. I do not want to be put on medication as I react to almost all meds terribly and I don't feel like it would help.
I believe in exercise and I feel like that would help and before I would be able to push myself to do that but now I feel so utterly lost and devoid of motivation that I just can't quite accomplish it.
My sleeping patterns is completely off and I feel utterly exhausted all the time.
I can sleep eight hours to 16 hours and I'm tired. I can sleep 3 to 6 hours and I'm tired.
I HATE waking up feeling full of choas and automatically bawling my eyes out.
What the fuck is wrong with me?? Why am I like this, why can't I get out of it??
I just feeling like I am chaotically drowning.
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Oh gawd. I've forgotten what inspired me to post that pic for you. Something in your post...non sequitors... |
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if your weather permits yes barefoot is always best....and ask for your guidance to help you..they too need to know they aren't taken for granted even tho always there for us. |
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I have several inches of snow at the moment so that would be a bit cold LOL! but hopefully soon! |